The very first "Bachelorette," Trista Sutter, is looking for answers in regards to her husband's health.
The former reality TV star revealed on Instagram over the weekend that Ryan Sutter, whom she met on the show, is dealing with a mystery illness. The good news is that it's not cancer; the frustrating news is they don't know what it is.
While speaking about Thanksgiving, Trista said, "I know I should be thankful, but I don't want to be fake. And, I'm struggling. This guy…my rock, my best friend, my hero, my love…is struggling. Not everyday, and not to the point that he can't work or cook or exercise or be with family, but enough. We've been struggling for months. Struggling to get answers. And this week, we got an answer that would normally be the best answer of all good answers. We found out that Ryan doesn't have cancer."
The fact that he doesn't have cancer is a "HUGE relief," she said.
"Part of us was wanting a diagnosis. Wanting to be able to fight for him to be cured instead of fighting for an answer. How messed up is that? Don't worry, I know. It's messed up," she said. "But, that's where we are. In a holding pattern of not knowing."
Trista and Ryan, who met and married in 2003, know things could be worse, particularly in a pandemic.
"I am thankful. Thankful to not have to be separated from a loved one who is dying due to COVID. Thankful to not have 2 children with a cancer diagnosis. Thankful to have each other and health insurance and jobs and a home and food on the table and healthy family members and all the things that make this life struggle-free," she wrote. "But if I'm not posting or answering emails or emotional or disconnected, please remember that everyone is struggling in some way, behind closed doors."
"We are young-ish and blessed, but not immune. We lived a fairy tale on TV and have a great life for all intents and purposes, but answers would be nice," she continued. "So, I'm going to keep praying for answers and am hopeful that if you are the praying type, that you'll think of Ryan when the time comes to send up a message."